Sorry it took so long but.....

I am still trying to find a place for everything and since i still have a job to do I can only do it at a certain pace so here we go.. Our christmas started Sat. when my Aunt and uncle came down to exchange gifts with us the kids had fun playing with them and i think they had fun playing with them.

Then sunday we always go to Honey's family. We had a good time. We ate a big dinner and then the kids opened gifts and then the adults did an elephant gift. I got movie passes that I had to steal. Then we took taylor home and Emmy was already with her dad. They always do christmas morning with them and we start about 1 or 2pm. I like it better like that!

So home we went to put these monsters to Bed so santa could come. HO HO HO! And sure enough when we woke up here is what he left. I loved the paper he chose.

Because we had to wait till 2pm I wanted the boys to enjoy a couple of gifts till the girls got home. and they did. Thanks santa for the noisey toys AARRGGHH!! but the Big Spideman was a hit.Hey guess what we?-9+6*-96+ recorded it on my Brand new digital video camera that i got.

Here are some of all the kids digging in after the girls arrived.

Hey do you think that they like spiderman :)

And Then the girls opened their big gift from Us not santa and look at the shock on their face in pic one and then look at the hug i loved it I cried to see them so excited. They got Phantom of the Opera tickets with new fancy dresses to go to the theater in :)

Then off to Dawn and Jasons for more gift exchange look how cute they got a kitchen and Emmy got a build a bear kit and chearleader stuff. It was fun we then had dessert. yummy Cheesecake !

Here the kids are testing out the toys the next day Emmy figured the skates out in like 10 minutes so proud!

I also got a sewing machine and a steamcleaner and radio that mounts under the cabinets. and lots more but those were the exciting stuff. I hope all of you had a wonderful X-mas we did sorry it is short and to the point but need to finish cleaning.

Oh a big thank you to So Shoik! I recieved a lovly package with a cook book and card and lots of goodies for the kids we love you and apprictate your kindness.

A few llittle things to say!

Well I made one more candy bouquet for my Honey's work and guess what they informed me to get ready for Valentines day.SIL already said she would help and we would split the profits. there are so many things you can so with the valentines ones and we could make kids ones as well this one went 360degrees it cost about 40 to make and the 2nd pic is the side view.I was very proud of this one and I think BFF will be proud too since she taught me how to make them to begin with.:)

Quentin has to have money in his pocket so maybe he will be a saver not a spender huh? he was showing me he found money and was going to put it in his pocket you should hear the way he says pocket it is too cute.

I was dooing dishes the other night after my house clear out and this is what I found. Mind you I just had finished cleaning this room the joys of have not only kids but twins right :)

Now for the hard part. Last night we got a package from my BIL and SIL in Idaho. In this package was 2 ornaments the same and on them they had the most beautiful saying and the backs were ingraved one for Evan and One for My Honey's mom who passed of cancer 3 months before Evan the same Year.In the box there was a poem and i would love to share it with you .

I still hear the songs

I still see the lights

I still feel your love

on cold wintery nights

I still share your hopes

and all of your cares

I'll even remind you

to please say your prayers

I just want to tell you

you still make me proud

you stand head and shoulders

above all the crowd

Keep trying each moment

to stay in his grace

I came here before you

to help set your place

You don't have to be

perfect all of the time

he forgives you the slip

if you continue to climb

To my family and friends

please be thankful today

I'm still close beside you

in a new special way

I love you all dearly

now don't shed a tear

Cause I'm spending my

Christmas with Jesus this year

By John Wm. Mooney Jr.

I needed this bad and so did Steve. I personally am having a very hard time with my Sons death this year. I am grateful for such a precious gift I litterally felt like I got the hug I needed from him this year. That might sound dumb but ever since i got it my Pain is different i have been struggling daily with my emotions and I still am sad and fight tears but it is a differnt feeling now. I felt like he hugged me and told me don't worry I am here mommy and we love you. Me and Grandma. So Jason and Crystal thank you for sending me and Steve these ornaments. And thank you for a gift i needed so badly his reminder and his love in a more physical form THis has been a priceless gift to us both. We love you guys and our Turkey.

My Weekend!

Well First thing Saturday Morning This Beautiful Baby Girl Carlee Jean was Born. She is the daughter to our very good friends. I have yet to see her but my Honey went on Sunday while I was at work. Guess what I forgot my camera for the Christmas party at Honey's work but it was fun and Taylor won a box of 24 large cupcakes and they were YUMMY! and the Girls had a blast I am so mad that I forgot my camera. I was just so rushed.


Then Saturday night we had our Christmas with my dad. Emmy was able to give Ti Ti and my dad the presents she bought them as well as we gave our dad his gifts and then the rest are for Christmas. Here is TI Ti opening hers from Emmy.

My dad got chocolates from Emmy and a MP3 player from all of us I think he was happy!

Oh this is just a picture of what happens when I turn my back for litterally 3 minutes.Look behind him at the tape on the floor Quentin did that and Zachary did the floor and that is Q. just telling on him he was saying oohhhh trouble! bubba did it. funny but not at the same time thank goodness it was Emmys washable crayola markers and it wiped right up.

Then as much as I wanted to go to the Candle lighting last night I could not go this year. I got off work early enough but every time I thought about it I broke down. For some reason this year I am struggling with Evan's Death. Daily I well up and think about him. I miss him more then ever. I wonder if it is seeing the boys doing some of the stuff he did. Yes he was five when he died but he mentally was where the boys are now when he died. Sometimes when the twins say certain things I hear him I see him and I feel him. I litterally ached all over last night with the thought of lighting the candle and hearing his name read. So i tried to remain strong and thanks to my Honey I was able to.He held my hand and said whatever you want to do I am there to help you through it.We decided to go downtown to the outdoor ice rink that has been opened for Christmas only and that way if I was able to go then I would still be able to cause it was a block away form the rink but that did not happen and yes I cried some more watching emmy and Taylor skate and laugh and watching the boys be excited over the lights and Bells and everytime I let my mind relax I cried. I also was so thankful for the family I have been blessed with. Yes a huge part is missing but I feel like Evan has helped us find each other. His mommy is Happier now then ever and My children might be one less but I still strive daily to be the best mom That I Can be. I am going to His grave next week to decorate and that is our tradition. If you lit a candle Thank you. I thankful for my blogging friends and Family. Maybe next year I can go. This is the first year in 4 years that i missed going.So here are some pics of the girls Ice skating and the boys playing with their Daddy. Thanks to Taylor Emmy got he hang of it quick.She only fell 10 time LOL!

Do yo usee the bells around their necks well thanks to Polar Express (the choo choo movie) they love bells and will not take them off.

National Remembrance Day!!!!!

Sunday is National remeberance day and we always partake in it. Most all of you know I lost my 5 years old son 4 and half years ago. On the second sunday of December every year you are supposed to light a candle at 7pm and blow it at promptly at 8pm and then the next time zone will light theirs. it is supposed to create a wave a light so that their light always shines on

So on to my point I am posting asking you to please join me I will be Downtown lighting my candle with a group of parents who have all lost their precious children. If you have lost a child I am so sorry and I hope you join me I will light one with you in mind so let me know.

Thank you for joining me. I know last year a few of you did and then posted about it later. Have a great night!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last night!

After Honey left for his game Emmy and the boys and one of her friends went to do her shopping for Christmas. She had saved up 60 dollars in her allowance over the last few months. We hit Big lots and the Dollar Tree. She was able to buy for 19 people for 60 dollars i was so proud of her and the stuff is really nice some include hand blown glass angels, tools,candy,barbies, dora toys and ect ect... Then after that my SIL came over so we could make some gifts for Emmys teacher and her son has three teachers so we went to the Dollars store and walmart and bought some stuff last week and since they go on vacation on the 15th we had to make them soon. so here is what we made Candy Boquets, if you click on the picture it will get bigger for a closer look.
See the light bulb in the middle it is a sucker and when you push the button it lights up cool huh?

Now tonight i have to work and Sat we have to go to Honeys Christmas party and then celebrate Chrismas with my dad and my Big Bros Birthday. Then Sunday back to work then monday we start all over again.I will post pics of the parties Hope all is well i will post soon have a great day

Just a big HEllo!!!!!!

Check them out!

A dear Friend of mine as fallin into the blogger world we all warned it that is a bad habbit to start but I am thrilled her name is Amy and she has recently started a Family with the man she loves and his amazing daughter so please jump on over to say welcome and share our family love with them. Here is her LINK Here We Are!

Its beginning to look alot like CHristmas!

My BFF came down form Washington and we got to spend lots of time together shopping and just hanging out and her Little lady spent some time at my house as well here is a pic of Her and Emmy after I did her hair, isn't she just a cuttie.


My lovely dog has dicided he is a cat I have found him on my couch like in this pic and also on the table and in the bath tub. he is just to funny. And here are the boys trying to pose in front of the tree with what they call smiles. Cheese boys. We had our pics taken and cards are being made. the family Pic turned out wonderful.I have to work all weekend and most of next week at the studio so do not expect much posting. I will try. Next week is Honey's Chrismas party which is always awsome for pics. I am also doing Christmas with my dad that weekend we all get together and do it early and this year we are just having it here instead of a restraunt because it is less hectic you see we have grown to a party of 13 and that is alot. this will be more laid back and fun. look for pics of that.


Oh you see the gate around the tree mostly for the little one i watch and a little for the boys but instead they reach over the gate and undecorate at least 2 times a day AAARRRGGHHH!!!!! I thought my tree would be pretty this year. WHATEVER maybe next year huh?